Three Years

Today is March 17th. It is my 24th birthday. It is also the third anniversary of the day my life changed.

When I was turning 21, I knew I wanted to do something special. I didn’t just want to go out and get trashed with my friends. I wanted to get myself a gift, and I wanted to get myself the one thing I wanted more than anything else in the entire world. So I did.

I got myself a spanking.

I’ve had a spanking fetish my entire life. I fantasized about it before I even knew what the act was called. And once I did learn the word, looking it up in the dictionary was as titillating for me as watching porn was for my friends. And once I did start watching porn, spanking videos were the first thing I looked up.

I never got spanked as a child, and I honestly thought all I needed was one spanking and it would be out of my system, and I could go back to being a shy, celibate, nerdy student who was afraid of the world. Boy, I couldn’t have been more wrong.

On March 17th, 2011, I spent a few hours in the back of a truck parked at a rest stop off of I-75. I arrived as one girl, and I left as another.

I’ve gone from a scared little girl to a confident one. I’ve gone from someone who was afraid of sex to someone who is an AVN nominated pornstar.

Three years ago, I never could have imagined where I am today. I couldn’t even have come up with the idea of some of the things I’ve done.

I’ve been tied up at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean. I’ve been gangbanged, twice. I’ve been fisted, one in my pussy, and too many times to count in my ass. I’ve had my naked picture, and some clothed ones too, published in countless magazines. I’ve had sex with over 100 different men.

I’ve met real friends, not just the friends of convenience I had during school. I’ve met friends I’ll have forever. And I’ve loved. I’ve lost loves, and hurt loves, and experienced love more deeply than I ever thought was possible.

There’s so much more to do.

Three years ago today, I started living my life. And I’m not ever going to stop.

7 Responses to Three Years

  • Happy Birthday Casey!! Glad to see and hear you are Happy. This my sisters birthday I told you before she died of a cancer with no cure. I enjoyed watching and listening and reading you . Thanks I planning on making something for you and sending it out for your birthday this weekend.Again enjoy you day happy 24th.

  • Thanks for sharing that! It’s a blessing to do what you love!

  • First of all I want to wish you a truly happy birthday! So awesome that you found your passion and more awesome that you are exploring them!! That’s not something a lot of people can say.
    In my opinion you are one of the most beautiful actresses I’ve seen.. Not just in porn. The few scenes I’ve seen, I’m imploring the camera man to go back up to the face!
    I wish you all the best in all your future endeavors. Keep living your dreams, stay safe, and know that you have a fan for life.
    Warmest regards,

  • Sometimes a little thing can change your live rather a bit, three months ago I had never seen anything of you but the day that I did changed my life quite a bit. I.m trying to write it down but thank you for shortcircuiting by brain and for giving me the butterflies i´m still shy-ish but more confident than before the 4th of januari.
    Your friend and admirer;
    Richard van der Voort

  • “You know how people long to be eternal. But they die with every day that passes. When you meet them, they’re not what you met last. In any given hour, they kill some part of themselves. They change, they deny, they contradict–AND THEY CALL IT GROWTH. At the end there’s nothing left, nothing unreversed or unbetrayed; as if there had never been an entity, only a succession of adjectives fading in and out on an unformed mass. How do they expect a permanence which they have never held for a single moment?” – Steven Mallory, in Ayn Rand’s “The Fountainhead”

  • Can you please tell me more about the truck stop? Where abouts I 75 is and what happened in the back of the truck. I love the juicy stuff. Im related to Calverts in far north California. So I asked.

  • Casey, you write so fluently and honestly. I’m a fan obviously but you are a remarkable artist. That sex is just not intercourse, it’s the whole package. Hours of fourplay is all part of it. Thank you. I like your blog. You are so focused. Impressed.

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