Monthly Archives: April 2014
I’ve been following the Belle Knox story pretty closely ever since the news broke. I was on set for James Avalon, and Koga (who’s job description I can best describe as the awesome Asian man who hangs out on set and takes polaroids and other pictures of us) showed me the original article. I had no idea the story would blow up into the tabloid sensation it is now.
But the more and more it developed, the more and more frustrated I got. Belle’s media attention didn’t bother me, because I just can’t get upset when mainstream press pays attention to one of us. And I wanted to support her, I really did. But as time went on, and she did more and more interviews, I just couldn’t. There were too many things she said (and did) that really didn’t sit right with me.
This article pushed me to the edge. I know the author meant well, but you just can’t start an article about other porn stars in college with a girl who is in cosmetology school. You just can’t.
And that’s why I decided to make my list. I wanted to keep it focused, so I made parameters — female porn stars who have graduated from college or who are still in school. I know there are lots of smart porn stars (Asia Carrera comes to mind) who never graduated, but I left them out because including them would also mean including anyone who attended community college for a semester before dropping out. And I left out guys because, whether we want to admit it or not, female porn stars face more discrimination in the real world than male porn stars.
Before I could write what I was intending to write, this article came out. It was the final straw. It was time for me to get my words out there.
So I did.
You can read my Huffington Post article here. Please comment, post it on Facebook and Twitter, and spread the word. The more clicks my article gets, the more opportunities I will have to do this kind of thing in the future.
Also, this is my first official byline. It’s pretty fucking cool.
aka TRPAMAQOTANIAI One
When I set up my Tumblr (which you can find here), I added one of those “ask me anything” buttons, out of sheer curiosity. Mostly I’ve gotten stupidity, but it’s the internet, so what can you really expect? But I’ve also gotten a few interesting questions. So, from now on, everything month, I’m going to answer one of the good ones. So, send them in via the button on Tumblr. Here is the first:
“I have a friend that has been a stripper for three years. She is burned out to a point where she just can’t handle another hard cock around her and has had more hands on her than she should in three slutty lifetimes. She finds that her sex drive is zero, level of interest is below zero and worries that long term trauma has been done while making a little money. Do you feel that any of these issues are pending for you? Have you heard similar and does it concern you?”
There is a difference between being a stripper and being a porn star. As a stripper, you have to play the game to get paid. You have to flirt, and be seductive, and interact directly with those lusting after you. If you don’t, you don’t get paid. As a porn star, yes you have to play the game with the fans, but it doesn’t impact your paycheck. A girl who ignores her fans on twitter may not receive many gifts from her wishlist in the mail, but companies are still going to hire her for shoots. She will still get paid.
And playing the game is exhausting. Some girls are excellent at it; I am not one of them. It’s the kind of thing that just wears me down. It’s why I can’t fathom myself as a stripper or a hooker.
Also, when it comes right down to it, I don’t really have very many hard cocks around me. When I go to work, it is an average of one, maybe two cocks, vying for my attention. And, for the most part, they are very professional cocks, who only want my attention when the camera is rolling. It’s not like a strip club, where every man in there has a boner, and the girl has to pay attention to all of them, all the time.
I do have to admit that this was a concern of mine before getting in to porn – that I would start to hate sex. But it no longer concerns me.
I have a bit of a skewed point of view on intimacy, I think. The act of putting a penis in a vagina (or a mouth or a butthole) by itself doesn’t mean anything emotionally to me. There are so many things that two people can do that are way more intimate than just having sex.
And a lot of the things that I find more intimate are the things that I don’t have do at work, the things that strippers and hookers have to do to keep their clients.
That’s why I’m not afraid of porn causing me to start hating sex. Because, sure, after a long week of working, I don’t want to have a dick inside me. But there are other things I still want to do, other things I still crave. It’s those other things that are important to me.
Those other things are my sex drive. Porn can’t take them away.